And she's such a gentle soul that it must be quite a shock to see her put her ears back
and be like that and I think that's the bit you've really struggled with isn't
it and you've taken that very, very personally. I've also recognised it is pain but I've been
concerned that she's getting dangerous with it when, you know, at the weekends and there's too
much going on around her, you know, she's just, you know, shut up. You've got to be very aware of that.
Just the same as me coming in and getting present there's a response, people with a lot of energy
is also going to have a response as well. Well, we were putting her over there during
the day just so she didn't have all the comings and goings but I've had a new horse come in,
which is there so what I may do at the weekends is just put her straight back out. Just let them
or just get back in later for their feet. Yeah, yeah absolutely. I really think the more nature,
the better but really it's going to be a case of getting closer and closer and giving her peace
of mind on those areas to be able to eventually start putting hand on and touching but she's so
sensitive in her body that we actually have to work at a distance first and then work through.
She's doing really, really well at the moment. I know it looks like she's just eating
but she's doing really, really well. She's coping with it better
because I slowed down. If I kept going strong, she would have just
got more and more upset with me because it's almost bringing in instant,
almost an instant healing crisis. It's pulling it up too fast. Present moment is very, very strong
and so we have to regulate it and look at distance. Now, that intensity can be the closer I ever come
to her, the more aware she is of me, the more aware of the present moment she will be. The
further away I am, she's still aware of me but she's not as aware so it won't be so strong.
The depth of your present moment of actually
thinking of absolutely nothing will be very strong. Even if I was here when I was doing
that it does have the same ear back effect. So it can be how long you're getting present,
how deep you are in that present moment. These are all areas that you can regulate it. How far away you
are from the animal is also going to regulate it. Even when she's in the field, you could
be the other side of the field, she'll be aware of you and it will still have an effect so these are
all areas that we can control the present moment of how strong it is. I know that if I step here,
I've got her awareness. Perfect, now if I get present
it's going to be different from if I'm here and I get present. It just takes the edge off
but we need to very gently work through until we can actually have her releasing. She's not shown,
she's shown a little bit of release but she's not quite ready to start yawning yet, which is
actually truly letting go. So part of her character is very, very independent, very strong willed,
which is good on some levels but it's not always good on let go.
So here we go again.
So I have a story that's popped into my head, which is of the river creatures and the river
creatures what they do is that they hold on to the sides of the bank under the water and their
whole job in life is to hold on and they cling and the water goes by and they cling. It's not
much of a life but it's the life that they have and then one river creature decided that he was
going to let go. So he told all of his mates and they were like, you can't do that, if you let go
you will surely be smashed against the rocks and you will die. Well, he wanted to have this sense
of freedom, he thought that there was more to life than just clinging on so he decided
that he would let go and the current surely did take him and he did tumble with the current on
the rocks on the bottom of the seabed and all of the river creatures went, we told him. Anyway,
something happened, which was quite amazing is that after a little bit of tumbling, which was
painful, he started to lift up in the current and he was flying. Anyway, a little bit further down
the river, there were other river creatures holding on for dear life and they watched this one river
creature fly by and they went, oh my God, that's amazing and they made stories of him and
his whole existence lived forever because he was the river creature that could fly.
Yeah, she's ready for it. I can get really present now
and I think I'm going to need you to come in and start doing what I'm doing here
because it's going to be important that you don't think it's just me.
That's it. So you're aware of her in the corner of your eyes.
So you're aware that straight away that's giving you a feeling, stay present.
Well done, okay, it's really important for you to know that I'm not special but what I'm working
with is the space and time and being present but your present moment is strong. Okay, go closer.
She released then she didn't come back up. There we go, lovely, now get present again.
So just keep present. So there's a line isn't there between her being uncomfortable and then getting
upset where you'd have to stop being present or her being uncomfortable but you keep her in
the present moment where she then releases. And she's much more in that mode now, which is great.
So that would be where her eyes go, you'll feel it, you'll feel her head, her neck sort of twitching as
it goes down like she's nodding off, which means she's released or a breath like she did last time.
So when we close our eyes, we're letting go
and she's half there in that process where they are closing so you can come forward a little
bit more again. She might get a bit uncomfortable and we're just working in that feeling.
We know she's more uncomfortable behind than anywhere else
so you can bring your aura of peace over to that area.
So that would now mean that you started shifting that way.
Lovely and you positioned yourself really well, you need to be able to
be aware of what her neck's doing.